FAREWELL!!!

FAREWELL EVERYONE!!!!


this is julie saying goodbye, these blogs have been dying slowly for a long time. i dont know how many of you will continue to blog, but i know i wont, i moved just over a week ago to glen iris. i am currently at home for christmas, but after i go back tonight i dont know when ill be back, i cant afford to be paying for internet in a cafe so the only opertunity to use the internet will be at home or at dans house, and at dans house i will probably only check my email and check my myspace. i dont know wheather pauline will continue to blog on here but i wont. so this is goodbye to anyone who ever read this blog, thanks for listening it meant alot.
if you need to contact me my email is ur_all_sheep_bahh[at]hotmail[dot]com and my myspace is www.myspace.com/pinkbits .
i love you all and ill see you on the drinken feild i hope
much love and lemons julie
queen of bullshit #1 is signing out.....

schoolies and muck up day

well! schoolies is over school is over, all that is left in the presentation night, which is pretty uneventful. schoolies was fabulous! i met some great people it feels like ive known them for years and i also got to spend some time with mates i havent seen in a while along with my mates of course. many good memories have been taken away from schoolies, along with a few bad ones which mostly involve arguments, which seam to be cured 10 fold. highlight of the week was the last night which i spent with dan, and also the night before when my happieness was unbeleiveable! i was so happy it was creepy, even dan had never seen me so happy, and im the happiest when im around him. it was fabulous!!!!! another good point, first night it rained so we got trashed in beci and dans spa! OMG! so fun! lol best way to start schoolies i recon! anyway im not gonna say much more about schoolies at the mo except that fiona had a boy, not an official boy, but she has one goddamn it, and its SO CUTE! me and jason felt like proud parents! anyway we got home on thursday leaviung ourselves about an hour and a half to get ready for valedictory, of course after i went and saw becky, went to iga and such things i only had 30 minutes left! then the year 12 party was at the dennetts and the turn out was pretty good i must admit, pity i hated 90% of the people there so me and fiona and bertha sat in the boot missing out schoolies family lots and lots, this then resulted in sleeping in the car for 2 hours then getting up and going to school at 6.30am for a pretty dodgy muck up day, the assembely was good though. and smoking and drinking infront of the teachers was also a highlight, oh and stealing like 7 smokes from kobi's bag ~evil laugh~ then i went home showered and me and fiona road tripped to melbourne so i could go to a job interview which i was late for and missed out on, then to weribee to see dan and dwayne, our men cause we missed them too much, yeah we suck i know, it had only been a day since we saw them but it felt like 3 or 4 days, fiona felt the same, anyway then we stayed the night and came home thismoring i got home at 2 and slept till 6.30 woke up for dinner and now im going back to bed shortly, im kinda trying to fill in time so my baby comes online and i can talk to him before i go to sleep but so far its been unsuccessful ~sad face~ anyway im gonna go ill see u all on the drinken feild i guess
much love and lemons joolie
.....who loves daniel forever!

so close together

well i have ad like 2 more coffee's sice th last post and i am felling mighty fine. well i am here because its late in the afternoon and i fell i have to get something off my chest before i go crazy and they send me to the nt house. i have been looking at bllogs hold on BIG yay and small thats how i feel. i wish ihad msn but that wont help because the 2 poeple i want to talk to are s-l-e-e-p-ing sssshhh so dont wake them up. oh if only you could see me now. i had a feeling b4 when i was outside thinking of the universe and alex, wow put those to together and you have one big wonderous problem that can never be sold. but i thoughi heard bones being crunched. and then i started to think about hannable and what it would be like it eat someone, the i got scared and came back inside i might venture out there laster, oh my julie you are fantastic, anyway i was reading other peoples blogs that put my in am already badder mood. I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE. i dont want anyone commenting on this. i am computer-illiterate and cant do it myself, so please dont comment, comment on the other one if needs ar met.

aarrhh so anyway what was a saying? uuummm, ALEX damm you, keep me up all night. this is what happened the night before my psyc exam, well meow. he he. thsi girll who is typing is a nut job and needs to be locked up. PERNIMANTLY. so yeah anyway i worrie about myself. so i think that from looking to far into my lazy brain i have realised many things, julie you ar fantastic. so is jason, fiona, fi and red bear and i will never forget you i think there should be a day dedicated to you guys just because you put up with soo much shit from all sides of the fence.
FRANCE he he flag. but yeah you guys deserve a meddle. my family is important to me. and anotehr thing i am not relationship material, i'm too clingy, and i dont think i will ever marrie i'm just too hard to please. and this has to be said. sorry cournry i really woul like to like you, i mean i like you but i cant. why the hell am i even saing this because you probably arnyt going to read this anyway. red bear!!! rrraaww. cat i'm a kitty cat, cows with guns. alex we have had wonderful times together.

another coffee. aarhh no one to tell me wen to STOP unlike a bastard that think he knows all fuck that. FUCK THAT.
steve has been msgin me and he called me tonight. saying how much he missed me. and even said i was gourgous. FUCK THAT.

whats funny is that this was twice as long and i cut bits out oof it, the bits people will find hard to digest like salarmy.

see you all hopefully tomorrow

love you all even the little ones
penis p-e-n-i-s
xxoo goodnight neverland ~ blows a rasberrie~

oh dearest brother of mine let me tell you....

well thats how i started to talk to my brother about living in a hole. i was not talking about fulham but explaning to my little bro, that well i was going do dig myself a hole and live in it forever, he missed the point and told me i would get sick of eating worms. silly little boy.
there was no point to that story! well life sucks once again. comming to the realisation that i will probably never see any of you ever again. and yeah. well what else can i say i dont want to write anything about alex, he still has exams and i want him to concerntrate and well all of you do too, sept for yvonne, jason and fiona i think thats it.

i stood on a rake today i found it intersetiong and funny, i was thinking of julie when it happened. fiona (lil sis) gave me some valuable advice to day " kill them all, let them all suffer." oh shit! did i just say that. that was the voices in my head. i really think that at our like 10 year reunion, i will be the most talked about, "hey i knew pauline. i cant belive she became a terrerist and killed all those people" or "i knew that pauline chick, i always knew that she was insane but killing all those poor people and pleading insainity. we all knew from day one that there was something weird about that girl." or the other option is that i will no be talked about but only become a statistic, you all know the ones they tell you, look around you, one of your class mates or you will be dead by the age of 20. so i'll just be a faint memory. either way its all the same. well deep hey?

well nothing interesting has been happening.
and i have just re-read what i typed and i think i need to lay off the coffee.

and the funny thing is now i can remember what fi said to me.
dont love ya
penis xxoo

school is OVER!

well it seams 98% of our blogging family have given up on blogging, im going to blog anyway, even though no one will read it and soon everyones going to run away from this one horse town and leave there internet behind them and then blogging will REALLY die ~sad face~ oh well, were moving on to bigger and better things! were going to get a life...according to pauline and her veiws on blogging. anyway ive been for 2 driving lessons which was fun and scary, and hopefully one more and i can go for my P's which will be fun, and i have no faith in jason to get them before me, because he's been saying hes gonna get it for the past 6+ months and hasnt done it yet, HAHA! sucker jas! and i swear to god if u do to me what u did to fiona NO FLAKE FOR U! so yeah


WE FINISHED SCHOOL OOOOHHH YEAHHHH!!!!

and now were doing exams ~is let down~
but ive done 2 theres 4 more to go, which is fun...ish...english was pretty dodge! and maths was ok. untill i was like shut down by dan telling me his answers...which were different to mine woops :S so short answer maths is on wed, thurs is psych, friday i have no exams but another driving lesson, tuesday is graphics and thursday, last byt most certainly not least is ART! then im going to get highly HIGHLY drunk...if i can afford it with schoolies and stuff coming up. and since alex is sick iguess he wont be wanting to get that drunk, and theres no point in shaving his head any more, if i have my P's idprobably prefer to go to melbourne but i dont think i will so yeah, iono becky said a while ago she'd come, and i pressume jason and rhys will be up for the celebrations, and fiona will be finished! so yeah i guess i better go study and call dan then get some sleep and ill see u all on the drinken feild
love yas
julie

happy birthday to me too

it was my birthday yesterday, luckily me and dan after alot of dissagreeing, crying, stressing and feelings of disbelief, managed to sort things out just after 12, even though we were trying to get it done before 12 so that i could be happy on my birthday, never the less dan was the first person to say happy birthday to me which was enough to make me happy for the whole day, but it was a pretty good day, we went to the pub at 10am, that was so much fun! it was better than getting wasted, cause i didnt particularly want to do that, then we went out for dinner me, mum, belinda, renee, pauline and becky (just us girls) and had a couple drinks and some dinner, then we all met at the black pub, played pool had a couple beers, then moved onto the star, had my first, and only go on the pokies, and won $5 so i bought myself an extra drink, then we moved onto the jacks and thats where the fun really started! i had heaps of fun there and we got lots of free drinks, then we all headed(very drunkardly) to pheonix, i dont remember much from there but i dont think we were there for long, it was kinda dead anyway, THEN we went to ringers....oh man! i had so many cowboyshots bought for me it was crazy, then of course, it being kareoky night, we had to belt out a few tunes, i know i sung at least 3 those being
-summer of 69
-oh what a night
-i touch myself(with jason and bec)
other than that im not sure, then i made my way to the bathroom where i stayed for quite sometime on the cold floor with my head in the bowl ~dissapointed face~ but its ok cause it was my 18th so i was aloud to get so drunk i puked! anyway i enjoyed the night, today was very very difficult and im so hung over i havent been able to smoke all day(u can tell im really hung over when i dont smoke) ive been drinken juice and cautiously eating things hoping they wont come back up which is why i had salad for dinner lol. but luckily mum and dad are away so i have the house to myself so i can be as hung over as i like. im currently waiting for dan to come online so i can speak to him quickly then go pass out on the couch for the night, although i should probably sleep in my bed since i havent slept in it for a while cause i never made it into my bed last night....i just stayed on the floor, im not sure how i managed that but i found it amusing.

anyhoo thats my exciting adventures of turning 18. were going out again tomorrow night, but im pretty sure i wont drink too much, and especialy no cowboy shots!

see u all on the drinking feild....which is now pubs clubs and bars!!!! whooo!!! lol

love u all
j

happy birthday to me!!!!!

well its pauline and i was 18 yesterday.

the party went alright for some. it was awsome. i was drunk and me and julie made speaches. and i cant really remember alot of it. but i have to say i have had the shittest brithday EVER. but to those people who made it good thank you. thank you julie for always being there for me, jason, dan, beth, daria, shorty, red bear, fiona, fiona and those others well you know who you are.

so yesterday i didnt go to school and got drunk at the park.
that was bad. and i didnt stop. so now i have a hang-over.

i have to say that when you want something for your birthday attention, positive from your boyfrend and that doesnt happen. you get really pissed off.
so alex thank you for the shit in the past few days.
and my dad thank you too thats awsome the way you make me feel like shit i cant really go into detail but thanks.
its funny how the 2 most important males in my life make it a living HELL.
but anyway what can you do.
GET OVER IT AND MAKE THEIR LIVES A LIVING HELL TOO
but i'm not going to because i am a better person and wouldnt even dream of making their birthdays SHIT.

so now that i have had my bitch.

i will end on a good note.
me and julie my awsome friend are going to have tea tonight for our middle birthdays.
julie you always know what to say and what to do when i am not ok. i love you. thank you so much


i have to do my mono tomorrow and i am still sick.
i have to be doing a sac and i dont have the material to do it.
uuuumm.
i think thats it.
hey alex even though you have been a factor of making my weekend shit,
i still love you and always will. and just hope you have a better one than what i have.

well i think thats it i have to go love the penis.

OH....MY....GOD....REEL BIG FISH FREEKEN ROCKED!

well...as the title suggests I WENT TO SEE REEL BIG FISH LAST NIGHT! it was like the greatest night ever! i passed out in like the 3rd song but managed to stay in the FRONT ROW for the entire show despite the being crushed and landed on by crowd surfers and almost passing out again. now...the things i scored....
- guitar pic...signed by the drummer...work that out if u can:P
- aarons water bottle
-aarons set list! the security guard said i deserved it, because of the passing out thing
-arron kissed me on the cheek AND stared at my boobs :P
-a whole film full of photos of reel big fish less than a metre away!!!!
-a nice pair of nicley bruised arms which hurt like a bitch! and i cant lean on anything
-a green RBF tshirt signed on the boob by aaron, 3 badges and a sticker, i bought all these.
- sore feet, neck, ribs, chest, hair was ripped out and i was covered in sweat that wasnt mine lol, i could tell by the smell...i wasnt dans either lol. but it soaked through 4 layers and i was sooooo wet! it was awsome!

now im going to have a cry because scott klopfenstien(i cant spell it) wasnt their, hes back up singer and trumpter and hes my favourite! and hes dans favourite too.
cry
cry
cry
cry
cry
cry
cry
cry
ok, now thats over, fishies were absolutly fabulous live, let me go into this is more detail, theyre funny and so it was a funny show, they sound absolutly perfect live, so its not like theyre a dodgy studio generated band, now ~looks proudly~ because JULIE has the set list she can tell u exactly what songs were played in the exact order....
-good thing/your guts
-trendy
-the bad guy
-i want your girlfriend
-we hate it
-kids dont like it(love that song!!!)/in the pit
-drinkin
-down in flames
-turn the radio off
-boss dee-jay
-the fire
-the set up
-where have u been
-everything sucks
-dont start a band/S.R(this was awsome! this is one of julies most favouritest songs)
-beer (BRILLIANT)
-take on me
ENCORE.....
-she has a girlfriend now(hehe suck yvonne!!), sung by someone in the crowd, very well might i add
-sell out!

FUN FUN TIMES! and the good thing was it was just me and dan, like we didnt know anyone around us, so it was great. we had lots of fun!
and goldfinger were good, the drummer put a twinkie in his ass and someone from the crowd ate it from there, it was funny, i ahve photos. and they played 99 red baloons and it was cool.
anyway enough of my ramblings.

RBF FUCKING RULE! and as much as i didnt think it was possible i love them so much more now!

love u guys
pinkbits *******

hard times

today has been hard, it hast hit me yet, i thought the alcohol would make it hit me, but no,
im so........numb......i guess thats the best way to put it, i dont know, i cant work it out, my brain wont accept it....its stressing me out, i dont understand, i want to go to bed but i just dont think theres much point. i tried to look for a poem to put on here for him, but i just didnt feel right taking someone elses pain and putting it on here to portray ours(i would have said who had written it so that it wasnt like i was pretending i had written it, but it just couldnt find one) its 1am, today we went to get coffee and food and managed to talk about happier stuff to take our minds off it, but i still just couldnt stop thinking about it, I....I........I...I dont know.....i just......, BLAH! maybe it will be easier to handle in the morning.

R.I.P lil sexy, missin you already u little gangsta.
our thoughts are with the family, friends and everyone else involved, especially ricky.
ill just leave it at that...
julie, i love you all

BORING

ok its holiday and i have been kinda looking for a job. i HAVE TO go back to school as i have to pass to get where i want. i havent done anything but put myself though so much stress. fiona and benny have gone over to the beach and i am stuck at home where dad has chucked a wobbly and shuts himself in the front room, is not eating and is not talking to anyone. FUN FUN FUN. i havent been anywhere really just alex's and jasons. thats it my life is BORING. i wish i was social. but i'm not. i think i like talking to myself anyway. its fun. i am slowly going crazy. its awsome soon i will be in a mental home, or start prdicting the future, either one. i have a wedding to go to, hopefully my stupid bitch ass copusin ass-lee (ash-lee) will not bring her homo boyfriend. aaaahhh well.

life as a tiger.
day 116677 i am dead.
dear diary
i died today, i saw the light and went for it.
i was hungry so i died of stavation.

thats it.
talk to you later
by the way kitty heaven is fantastic.

love you all the peis by your side xxoo